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He’s falling in love—and she’s falling over the edge of sanity. From the author of Beautiful and Clean, a “real and relatable” (VOYA) exploration of a romance marred by mental illness.

What if I can’t ever be who you want me to be?

Connor knows that Izzy will never fall in love with him the way he’s fallen for her. But somehow he’s been let into her crazy, exhilarating world and become her closest confidante. The closer they get, however, the more Connor realizes that Izzy’s highs are too high and her lows are too low. And the frenetic energy that makes her shine is starting to push her into a much darker place.

As Izzy’s behavior gets increasingly erratic and self-destructive, Connor gets increasingly desperate to stop her from plummeting. He knows he can’t save her from her pain...but what if no one else can?
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  • Simon Pulse | 
  • 416 pages | 
  • ISBN 9781442413481 | 
  • May 2013 | 
  • Grades 9 and up
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Author Amy Reed Shares Some Advice

Amy Reed offers advice to budding writers.

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From: condorboy

To: yikes!izzy

Date: Wednesday, August 31—10:42 AM

Subject: Hello stranger

Dear Isabel,

Sometimes my dog looks like Robert De Niro. She’s got a mole on her cheek right about where he does, and she gets this serious look like “Are you talking to me? Are you talking to me?” with her forehead all wrinkly and her eyebrows raised and a defiant glint in her eyes. I don’t really know what this means, except that I probably spend way too much time with my dog. Her name is Señor Cuddlebones, by the way. Señor for short. I think I told you about her... see more

About the Author

Amy Reed
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Amy Reed

Amy Reed is the author of Beautiful, Clean, Crazy, and Over You. Originally from the Seattle area, she now lives and writes in Oakland, California. To learn more, visit her at




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