Product Details
Pocket Books, February 2010
Mass Market Paperback, 336 pages
ISBN-10: 1439167613
ISBN-13: 9781439167618
Chapter One
The woman shifted on the ivory leather couch and smiled. Thank you for seeing me at such short notice, Dr. Chase.
Megan nodded and forced herself to return the smile, just as she would if the woman were a patient.
But the woman—Elizabeth Reid—was not a patient. Elizabeth Reid was an FBI agent.
Eleven months before, the idea of a federal agent having any reason to talk to her, to question her, would have surprised Megan enough to make her spill her cocktail, had she been drinking one. Not so now. Damn it. She was only surprised the feds were being so blatant this time, that they were actually speaking to her openly.
Of course. Megan folded her hands in her lap, decided that looked too prim, as if she had something to hide, and rearranged herself into a more relaxed pose, arms resting on the arms of her chair, ankles crossed. Casual. She hoped.
At least Agent Reid didnt seem to see a problem. Her mind, when Megan reached into it as stealthily as she could, seemed totally focused on her objective, and seeing what it was put some much-needed steel into Megans spine.
You havent asked me why Im here, Dr. Chase.
I assume youll tell me, Agent Reid.
The woman smiled. I suppose I will. We were wondering if you knew anything about the Bellreive Hotel.
Okay. This had not been in the womans head a few seconds ago. Good thing Megan had had some practice lately in keeping calm, in not letting her own emotions and feelings show. Something shed always considered herself pretty good at; now she figured shed just about graduated from the Masterclass.
Ive heard of it, she said. Ive never been there. I wouldnt be able to afford it, I dont think. Why?
Agent Reid gave her a sunny smile, as if this was the answer shed expected. Which it probably was. She pushed a strand of ink-black hair behind her ear and leaned forward, her black-suited body a deep crack against the pale couch and walls. Everything in the room was light, an attempt to counteract the darkness of the windowless space in the dingy little strip mall.
Maybe not as bad as that. It was a big space. It was in a nice part of town. But it still wasnt . . . wasnt what shed dreamed of when shed thought of having her own practice.
It was good enough, though. And she couldnt have everything. The rest of her life certainly held little cause for many complaints.
Since you asked, weve received some interesting information, Agent Reid said. And I think youll be especially interested, as it concerns you.
I assumed it did, since youre here, Megan replied, but I cant imagine how this could have anything to do with me.
Weve received information that a meeting is due to take place at the Bellreive next week. Attending that meeting will be one or two . . . persons of interest to us.
Im afraid I dont know anything about that.
You havent taken next week off ? According to your schedule—
Megan stood up. Done. Next week is my birthday. As I believe you know. Yes, Im taking some vacation time. I have every right to. So?
So youre confirming the meeting?
Megan just stared at her.
Dr. Chase, Im trying to . . . Im offering you a deal. Immunity. Full and total. Elizabeth reached into the sleek black briefcase resting like a coiled viper at her side. If youd read over these papers—we know youre not involved. But your testimony, if you would—
Im sorry. I have a patient due here any moment. Megan dodged the papers and pushed past Elizabeth to open the door. Thanks for your time, but I have no idea what youre talking about.
Perhaps Greyson Dante does. Elizabeth didnt move; neither did her eyes, focused intently on Megans face. Greyson Dante? You are involved with him, right? Dont bother denying it. We already know.
Thank you for your time, Megan said again. She raised her eyebrows, glanced at the open door and the bare little room beyond. The offices arrangement was one of its chief charms; it may not be the greatest place in the world, but it did provide her patients with privacy. Those exiting left through that little room. Those waiting sat in the furnished waiting area with magazines and a water cooler. Neither saw the other.
Shed never thought the arrangement would be of such benefit to her. It wasnt as though Agent Reid had FBI printed across her forehead in big block letters or anything, but just the same . . . Well. If it werent for the separate exit, Megan could hardly stand there with the door open, could she? Not when her two oclock was bound to be already waiting, and her two oclock was a notorious shadow-jumper.
Agent Reid finally gave up. She sighed and stood, shoving the papers back into her briefcase. I do wish you would think about it. Its only a matter of time, Dr. Chase. Someone with your public image ?
Had Megan thought the woman had given up? Ha. No, shed just been waiting for the opportunity to turn the screw tighter.
But Megans skin was pretty thick. So she let the implied threat fall to the ground between them and refused to pick it up. If you dont mind, I do have another appointment.
Of course. Agent Reid slipped a stark white business card from the black depths of her suit jacket The blue FBI logo seemed to glow against the background. Take my card, though, please. And call me if you change your mind. Or if you find yourself at the Bellreive next week.
Megan took the card. No point in appearing uncooperative. Or rather, more uncooperative than she already appeared.
It didnt really matter; she hoped it didnt anyway. But that bothered her too, didnt it? Hoping it wouldnt matter? Hoping that Agent Reid and her fairly odd attempt to get whatever information she thought Megan might have were no more important than the few casual words Megan exchanged with the checkout girl at the grocery store and no more likely to stick in anyones mind later?
Yes. It did. But there was very little she could do about it at that moment, save utter a quiet Fuck under her breath when Agent Reid finally closed the exit door behind herself.
Meanwhile timid taps at the other door told Megan shed been exactly right. Her two oclock—Ted Anderson—was there, and even if she wasnt really watching the clock, he certainly was. He always did.
She shouldnt be so hard on Ted, though. Hed followed her over from Serenity Partners the winter before, and that loyalty meant something to her. Sure, most of her patients had come along. That didnt make their loyalty any less valuable.
The door opened with an almost imperceptible squeak. Shed have to oil those hinges again. The office plaza now housing her practice wasnt old, but apparently the previous tenant had run some kind of family-encounter group that involved lots of slamming doors.
Ted stood just past the threshold in his typical hunched pose, like Sisyphus trying to push his worries up a hill. The overhead lights shone through his thin hair and made his scalp beneath glow pinkish.
Come on in, Ted. Megan stepped back. Usually he practically knocked her over in his haste to enter the room. Not a surprise, really. Teds wife ignored him. So did his children. Those years of neglect seemed to have erased him somehow. Sad. But it was something Megan usually felt she was doing a decent job of counteracting, encouraging Ted to speak up at home, to get out into the world more.
Today, however, he didnt move from the doorway. Dr. Chase, I just . . . I just came to tell you I wont be coming anymore. I thought I owed you letting you know in person.
Oh, for fucks sake. First the FBI showed up and made vague little threats and offered vague little deals, and now this. Losing a patient wasnt exactly a joy. Ted, I . . . Is something the matter? Please, at least come in and sit down.
He hesitated.
Come in, please. Whatever decision youve made is your decision, and I respect that. I wont try to talk you out of anything. But if you wanted to tell me in person, you obviously thought there was an explanation to be made, right?
Still he waited, like a golf ball teetering on the edge of a hole. Finally he nodded and edged past her.
Okay. She sat back in her chair and plastered what she hoped was an understanding smile on her face. Whats up?
You cant help me anymore, he mumbled. A piece of paper she hadnt noticed before tumbled in his hands; he folded and unfolded it as though performing the motions incorrectly would result in the destruction of the universe. Whats wrong with me . . . its not something you can fix.
Its not a matter of fixing. I dont think theres anything wrong with you, or that youre broken in some way. You shouldnt feel—
Im possessed.
No, youre not, she said, before she thought, Okay, double what-the-fuck. Possessed? Where the hell would Ted get an idea like that?
Especially since it wasnt true. Not remotely. She could still read him; had he been possessed, she couldnt have.
He glared at her. It surprised her almost as much as his previous utterance had. Thats what he said youd say.
He?
Reverend Walther. He said youd say that. You people are just desperate to keep us on a string, to keep taking our money.
Where in the world—
All these years Ive been coming here, thinking something was wrong with me, and it wasnt me. It was these demons.
Ted. You are not possessed by demons. And she should know. She was, in fact, probably the only human being in the world who could tell him definitively that his problems had nothing to do with demons. Or at least very little to do with them. Teds personal demons—his little Yezer Ha-Ra, that was—numbered only two, and they were fairly content with that.
At least they were now. Since Megan had assumed the leadership of the local Yezer family, thered been a few sticky moments. At one point shed almost lost them completely, along with her life.
But that had been months before. Now her relationship to and rules for the Yezer had reached a level of equilibrium, and if the Yezer werent growing fat off the misery of humans, they werent starving either.
But none of that was the issue at the moment. She seriously doubted Ted was talking about Yezer, especially since Yezer didnt actually possess people. They merely sat on peoples shoulders and tried to persuade them to commit . . . well, if not evil acts, then certainly not good ones. Selfish acts. Mildly cruel acts. Depending on the person, of course.
I dont expect you to believe it, Dr. Chase. But all this therapy, psychology . . . what you do . . . it cant help people. Its demons making people unhappy and demons making us do wrong, and Reverend Walther can help me. So I wont be coming back here. Just thought I should tell you.
Eep. Hed never know how right he was about demons making people unhappy, even if he was wrong about how it actually worked. Possession . . . Walther . . . A bell rang somewhere in the back of Megans head. Yes, shed heard of him, hadnt she? Seen something recently on one of those newsmagazine shows. Her memory of it was rather vague but clear enough for one thing, at least.
Are you talking about an exorcism?
Ted nodded. Shit.
Ted, please. I really have to strongly advise you against this. It could be dangerous, I dont know—
Ted stood up. Megan could say one thing for whoever Reverend Walther was, hed given Ted more strength than shed ever seen from him.
Of course, that strength was based on falsehoods and the promise of a quick fix and so was more akin to zealotry than any actual strength, but why quibble? There didnt appear to be much she could do about it either way.
The only dangerous thing is to go on living the way I am, he said. To let these demons grow and take over. No, thank you, Dr. Chase. I know theres a solution to my problems, but it requires faith. And faith Ive got.
You need to have faith in yourself, Ted, you dont need an exorcism, you just need—
Thanks, Dr. Chase, but I have to go. Lilys waiting for me in the car, and were about to head over to see the reverend. He stood up and held out his hand.
Megan took it and, with it, the visions that came when she lowered her shields: Teds wife, Lily, convincing Ted this exorcism thing was the answer to their problems. Why had Ted never told her how deeply religious Lily was becoming over the last six months? The shadowy face of a man—Reverend Walther, she assumed. A face she instinctively disliked, but whether that was because she thought he was a charlatan, because he was lying to one of her patients, or because of some other reason, she didnt know.
And at that moment she didnt particularly care. It was barely quarter past two on a beautiful July day, and all she wanted to do was go home, crawl under the covers, and stay there.
If you ever need anything . . . you can always give me a call. She dropped his hand. Ill still be here.
Well, thanks again, he said.
They stood for an awkward moment, unsure how long to keep shaking hands or if they should do more or what. Rather like greeting a long-lost cousin youd never really liked. Should you forget the time he locked you in the basement and kiss him anyway because he was family, or did you treat him like any other stranger? How thick was that blood anyway?
Not so thick in this case or, rather, nonexistent. Ted let go of her hand, nodded, and let himself out the little exit door, leaving Megan with an open forty-minute window and plenty to think about during it. Including the FBI.
© 2010 Stacey Fackler